-Demi Lovato

HIATUS

Nyeahahahaha. Are you amazed? :O Never thought I’d go on a hiatus eh? For O’s too. HAHAHA. -kisses onedaylove- I’ll miss ya. Miss me when I’m gone?

Edit (13 Oct):
Okay so like. Just read something. I’m really an idiot who’s has/is going to hurt lots of people. Well, maybeeee not lots. But a few (maybe two) specifically. THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND ME. YES IT DOES NOT. IT DOES NOT. OKAY. Omfg shut up. SOVA O’S TOMORROW I’M SCARED. IF I CAN’T GET AN AVERAGE OF 8.5/10 FOR EVERY QUESTION I CAN FORGET ABOUT MY FRICKEN A1 FOR AEP.

Okay so I’m like hungry x10⁴⁶²⁸³⁶⁰¹²⁹³⁵⁷⁷. HUNGRY!!!!!!! The only thing stopping me from eating freely is this sore throat. It’s sore and itchy but not itchy til the point I have to cough all the time. I want to cough, but I can’t? It’s so frustrating, seriously.

Anyway I had a good morning which was ruined by Mr Chan (how could you not expect it?). I felt like shit the whole day after that, but not because of what he did, more like he just totally pissed me off and chased the happiness away and put me in a super-sian mood. Okay, paired up with my sore throat and fever chill it sucked, like, real bad.

+ve note: I managed to get >6/10 for my SOVA homework! Hehe, I’m always stuck at 6/10, 6/10, 6/10. For this piece I got 7.5/10, 8/10 and 7.5/10 Whoooo! I really do hope Antony Gormley and Andy Goldsworthy come out for O’s!!!!! Time, space, memory, season, decay, EPHEMERAL hahaha.

SOVA paper’s next wednesday. Stupid school won’t let us leave school earlier, like wtf seriously. Whatever happened to two week (or something like that) break before your first paper? So annoying, graaah

I am so not inspired to do Physics now, thank you (the way Lily Allen says it) Mr Chan, thank you very very much. >>:|

-Michael Gungor

Okay. I am over you and I am over you. I swear. Yesterday, seeing them in the car, I was like wow okay. But he wasn’t there, aaaahhhh so there’s that sign for you. HOWEVER DURING MASS I SAW HER AND I WAS LIKE, ARE YOU SUREEE ABOUT THIS. I have decided to move on. I am moving on, slowly but surely. Okay maybe not that slowly hahahaha. Oh yes, and I always feel this twinge in my heart, you know, of regret. But I have decided, that I am going to get over you because it’ll be stupid to keep going back to those feelings that probably are based on just memories. Do you get what I’m saying? :/

Yesterday was the last day of the 9-day Novena! So there’s the Feast Day dinner todaaaay. Zomg I swear the church is so fucking annoying. Or the people planning where we sit at least. Seriously? Next to the CL cupboard? Are you fuh-reaking kidding me?! H8chu all ttm plz

We had our last retreat yesterday. I don’t know about the rest, but I really feel super sad that we’re leaving IJ. As in I’m feeling depressed already. We’re not gonna be able to shout, ANYBODY GOT A PAD anymore, or, like Justina/Sherlyn, lift up people’s skirts just for the fun of it. And worse still, I don’t have a chance of being in the same school as any of my classmates now, and that makes me even sadder because I seriously love my class okay. It took me this long to realise :/ And here most of them are complaining about JC when poly’s gonna be so much harder okay. I can’t imagine not having to wear a uniform, I mean, I’ve been wearing the damn pinafore for 10 years now.

-sigh- I am going to cheer up and focus on studying, because Fr Pereira (however you spell his name) said we should have a 9am-9pm study plan haha. 10 hours HAHAHAH. But after today, because well it’d be kind of pointless for me to start studying now when I’m going to leave the house soon. Prelims are over, but O’s aren’t. I passed my Physics MCQ but hell, I’m not gonna get my A1, A2 even. I CANT DO IT. 8 points with L1R4 I can’t I can’t, I know everyone’s telling me you confirm can one la but LOOK AT ME. DO YOU REALLY THINK I CAN? REALLY?

-Avenged Sevenfold

Exactly why did I play ball today? Sure it was fun, other than Shaun/Sean (I take it as Shaun) running a one-man show. Maybe he was… showing off? Or just is really very pro. Hahaha. And Jon following suite. Maybe he was… trying to not lose face? I don’t know. Basketball was fun, nonetheless. What I’m really hating now, is this massive headache I’ve got. The pain in my head, and in my heart, is just too much to bear. Why do you have to be so mean? I probably should have never assumed that we were going to happen, but it’s hard when all the people around me kept saying we would. Right at this moment, my emotions feel like they’re in this humungous whirlpool. I feel angry, missed, envious, loved, in love, sad, drained all at once. In other words, I’m very confused.

I really wish I could stop time, maybe rewind. I know everyone wishes for that. I want to not get in this mess, stop myself before I stopped somethings from happening. I’d be so different now. I think I’m just very jealous, and am looking for someone like him which is stupid. Because, there’s only one, and he’s with her. She’s like totally wowzarr, I would seriously idolise her if my religion allowed it. (Insert scream, because I’m not actually going to scream in front of the computer. I’ll look like a total idiot)

I have to focus on O’s!!!!!! Not on stupid stuff like this? Why do I get distracted so easily, WHY? I think it came from always getting my way. Spoilt, y’know, that kind of thing.

“Another night, another dream wasted on you” Not only does this part of the song relate to you, but actually, the whole song reminds me of you. You play it so well, I bet all the girls fell too.

Yeah, they probably did. I know one of them fell. Not then, but. Ugh stop. K bye.

-Alesana

HELLLOOO, LIKE OMG HIIII. I’D LIKE TO GIVE A GREAT BIG LOUD BOOMZ SHOUT OUT TO MY SISTER AND DEBORAH NYEAHAHA. I am looking forward to a siblings outing, and an End-of-Coursework-Celebration outing!!!!!!! Very very exciting.

You know what else is exciting (to Celeste at least)? A MATHS PAPER ON TUESDAY + WEDNESDAY! Ha-ha-ha. Really funny huh. I only did 9 questions today. I really suck, and am totally inefficient and it’s seriously not like I don’t try you know? Cause I totally do. But, ughhh Damn it, sure fail la. Also! SOVA paper’s after A Math on Wednesday. GO LIZZI! PUT THAT A IN SOVA! You can do it, yes you can! Lizzi, lizzi, you’re the. wo-man nevermind

I find no purpose in life now, I’m like. Okay I’m just looking forward to O’s, so that I can look forward to the end of O’s, and the start of many many things. Muahaha. Also the end of my time in IJ, which is a really sad event. Really. Who wants to leave IJ?!?!?!?! Sighx10×10³¹⁴¹⁵⁹²⁶⁵

-Bangles

I’ve been doing Maths! Actually, I only did 10 questions. But it really does beat sitting around the whole day reading Tumblrs and MLIA. I’m going for Novena today! (SVDP @8PM) The theme is ‘Where There Is Hatred, Let Me Bring Your Love’. Lissa’s sad the Redemptorists aren’t presiding the 9-day Novena. Mars is happy. So I feel pretty neutral to this whole thing.

Oh, yes. I’ve a tumblr! For quite a while now, actually. Explains the lack of activity here, and me reading Tumblrs a lot now, doesn’t it? I still don’t understand how Tumblarity makes me want to post more. Maybe that’s the whole point. -shrug- I like my Tumblr. Tumblrrrrr. And the missing E. Ha-ha-ha tumbler just looks weird now.

-Forever The Sickest Kids

WOWZARRR I TTLY <3 FTSK!!! Anyway, I was totally in the mood to study History BUT NO. I LEFT MY NOTES NEXT TO MY COMPUTER AND WENT TO CHURCH WITH MY SS NOTES. SMART ASS RIGHT! I found my SOVA notes anyway and trieeeed studying that. The foetal position can be vulnerable or safe depending on which point of view you’re looking at the subject from. The woman in the blue cloth curls up into the foetal position to feel safe and warm, however she is also actually very vulnerable. Okay I’ve no idea how to say why she’s vulnerable. DAMN STUPID SOVA, I’m supposed to be using Elements and Principles!!!!

AHHHH MOTHAAAA- My elbow flew of its own accord and hit poor Benjaime on the side of its screen :/ And my elbow really hurts now…. Why! Yeah Benjaime because Ben’s and Jaime Tan’s stickers have been stuck on it for like, ever. Hahaha SORRY BUT ITS TEMPORARY O-KAY?

I went skating just now. I CAN DO EAGLE YAY YAY YAY YAY PWNAGEEE HAHAHAHA. Okay this is a very uninformative post, but I don’t really care. I’m still posting it. I will finish some chem paper 2 tomorrow morning before going for Chem Paper 2. BEST OF LUCK TO ALL YOU POOR SUCKERS SOULS WHO HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY FOR YOUR LIT PAPER MUAHAHAHA.

My elbow still hurts

-Creed

My brother’s listening to some techno shit now. I mean, I’m really okay with techno and all that but, it’s just too much to handle!

Okay so today was realllly not productive, I really truly sincerely genuinely WITH ALL MY HEART AND ALL THE ENERGY I COULD SUMMON tried to study History. So I clarified how to write a basis of comparison essay with Samuel (yeah, from cat class/SJI hahahaha) butttt I really don’t think I can remember what he said. Thank goodness I wrote it down…. somewhere…

I slept like for most of today, it really sucked. I woke up at noon, got out of bed like, half an hour later. Did practically nothing the rest of the afternoon, occasional naps (on the table, on my brother’s bed which used to be mine btw), really tried to study history but just couldn’t make it. -sigh- How do you get out of a ditch as deep as the one I’m in?

I went blading in the evening, taught Celeste how to brake. Well, tried. She’s not as bad as she thinks she is, really. A little afraid. It’s allll in the mind, babe. (Ironic isn’t it? I think it’s all in my mind too, this whole slump thing :/) Yeah, I watched slalom skating tuts on youtube before that, I’ve a whole list of moves I wanna be able to do before the end of the year now. Hahahaha. I REALLY WANT TO DO AN ‘EAGLE’. K not DO an eagle, but. You get it.

I’m hungry Hah, Iggy’s listening to metal now. What an odd playlist

And truth be told, I’m lying~
(The All-American Rejects – Gives You Hell, Zomg you gotta love this song <3)

I know many people wish they could rewind and go back in time. I'd wish the same thing too, but if I do think like that, I'm never gonna grow up. To me, I'm still just this immature brat, who must get what she wants. I say what I want, when I want. Or I do what I think will make people see me in a better way. Or something like that. But I want to just be me, you know? And for now, ‘me’ is this girl who likes to use words a lot (simple words, because she doesn’t have a great big book of vocabulary like all the people around her, whom she envies a lot btw) and not show stuff through actions. Graaaah Idk what I’m talking about. I’m confused, very confused.

I’ve qualms about the things I said before. What if this isn’t it? What if this isn’t the solution, the cure for the disease I caught a day before my birthday? -insert sigh here- I’ll never change, always stay the same, and the amount of sighs I heave are tantamount to the level of my immaturity. -SIGH-

(Fear of the Dark – Chuck Billy)

YOOOOOOOOO I’M LIKE SOOOO MOTHAFRRRRAKING TIRED PLZ. Doing art in the gallery has resulted in my more than usual vulgar self. Hm, whatever do I really give a shit? I’M DONE WITH MY FINAL PIECE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOHOO LIKE TTLY WOWZARRRR~

Muahahah yes I just had to say that. Do you like pears? -wiggles eybrows- I do! Hahaha some are sweet, and yummy haha