This blog is 4 years old!!!!! O M G I feel old… and totally useless hahaha. Anyway I’m almost done with my third semester in SP. Goodness, that’s nearly halfway done with my poly life! (G-A-W-D that’s slow) My tests just started today, and come 24 August I will be freeeeeee! For almost 2 months, I won’t have to touch school work ^^v oh the excitement I’m feeling right now!!! So much planned for the holidays – I’m going to Bangkok! with my mom and Larissa and her mom, and there’s also gonna be a chalet for our classmates and stuff, and then there’s Sports Club’s Night Cycling event (which I’m planning!). Well, that isn’t a lot actually. But it’s enough to keep me going!

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I literally feel as if there’s a hurricane inside of me, so that all my emotions are a mess. I feel physically and mentally tired. I’ve too much on my plate at this moment!!! (It’s okay I will pull through, I must)

Ahhhhhh, Tom Felton & Emma Watson are just tooooo cute! Both as individuals and together! I’m totally getting into the whole “aw-I’m-gonna-miss-Harry-Potter-it-was-my-childhood-and-now-it’s-over” mood on Tumblr and on We heart it… The pictures are just too pretty and the quotes are touching :’) Harry Potter isn’t over though!!!! It lives on in all of our hearts (yeah, yeah…)

I also cannot get over Juno quotes/gifs. It’s just the feeling you get after watching a movie or listening to a song, and someone is connected to it. Okay, don’t brood. Make the good memories last, and the write the bad ones in sand.

It was a hot and sultry afternoon
Sometime at the end of June
We had collapsed ourselves in shade somewhere
To conclude our love affair
But it was too damn hot to speak that much
It felt easier to touch
So we forgot to fall apart that day
And the next day

What’s happening…

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be empited again
The seed I’ve recieved I will sow

All except for you, ugh. You ruin me.

I’m very tired. And busy. But I feel good Busy = good. Makes me enjoy what free time I have. And that’s very fulfilling. Going to Genting soon, I’m so excitedddd kekeke I really can’t wait ^^ Lots of other things coming up, I can only pray for the grace of persistence and for the strength of the Spirit to see me through.

I feel different…

I think if I’ve learned anything about friendship, it’s to hang in, stay connected, fight for them, and let them fight for you. Don’t walk away, don’t be distracted, don’t be too busy or tired, don’t take them for granted. Friends are part of the glue that holds life and faith together. Powerful stuff.

Jon Katz

RELATIONSHIPS ARE WORTH FIGHTING FOR. BUT NOT IF YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE FIGHTING.

We don’t need to rush. If something’s bound to happen, it will happen. In the right time, with the right person and for the best reason.

Tell me it’s me you’re dreaming of

Recently I felt this fear to go to bed. Well, not exactly. I was feeling scared of something in more than anything else. And it was quite a strange experience. I think it might have been caused by the heightened hormones in my body at the time… I sure hope it was.

Currently waiting up with my mom now. She asked me to accompany her while she prints stuff for school tomorrow. I’m tired. I shall go to bed after this post, which is… mainly to update this blogggg. Which is kind of dying? I think? Hahaha.

EXAMS ARE ALMOST OVER. One last paper – Cell biology. It’s pretty easy in my opinion? The contents are easy to remember once you’ve grasped the concept. I think paying attention in class helped, phew!

I’ve been watching The Mentalist, hehe it’s so good. Simon Baker is sooo good looking + Jane and Lisbon make a really good pair hahaha. I’m stuck at episode 7 because 8 won’t downloaddd. Hopefully it’ll be done by Thursday so I can watch it when I get home!

SOOO excited for Thursday, I can’t wait for it to come! After Cell Bio, I thinkkk a few of us are gonna watch I Am Number Four and then there’s the barbecue at Nivedha’s! Wheeee I’m bringing marshmalllowwz yum :3

OH! AND. AND. ZAKI & BOBBY WENT DOWN ON MONDAY TO GET THE TICKETS (???) FOR GENTING. WHOOOOO It is confirmed. That we are going there. Hahaha sooooooo excited omg cannot. wait. (Few of us are going to Genting during the holidays, whoop! Shopping! Theme park! FUNNNN!) Hehehe.

I missssss this. When can we have our next sleepover, guys?????? Lissa, Mars, Celly???? It feels so different now, like. I don’t know! Different schools, different people, different subjects of interest? But I don’t ever want to lose you girls you are awesome we are awesome together hahaha.

More thoughts coming your way. I don’t know who I am right now. I don’t know what I’ve become, what I’m turning into, what I’m looking for… I just hope that whatever it is, I won’t lose myself and all that I believe in….

Or have I already lost it all?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA TOTALLY LOL-ED AND COULDN’T STOP LAUGHING. Isn’t it funny?

Did past sem math papers at Starbucks today with Larissa beside me watching 90210. It was a good afternoon (despite the fact my ass got sore and my back still hurts)! I made a lot of careless mistakes doing those papers, really hope I don’t tomorrow during the exam! *fingers crossed*

ALSO CAN’T WAIT FOR CELLY’S BIRTHDAY PARTY HEHEHE. I have an excellent idea of what to go as hehehehe

I just watched an episode of The Mentalist! The firstttt. And I’m waiting for the second episode to download now. Surprisingly enough, I am pretty happy now. With nothing, with no one. I kind of feel free. Not lonely, nope. Definitely not. But then again, it could be a phase, it could be the hormonal fluctuations in my body… I’d like to not over-think it though, I want to be happy ^^ just let me beeeee happpyyyy.

“With nothing, with no one” reminds me of a song! By Noah and the Whale! I Have Nothing. They are a-maaaayyy-zing. I just downloaded their album Peaceful The World Lays Me Down. (Y) (Y) (Y) (although I do prefer The First Days of Spring… for now haha)

Well, I have nothing
I have no one
I’ve been so quickly set free
And I love nothing
I love no one
Are words that you whisper in my mind, to someone
I don’t know
To someone I don’t know
To someone

I’d do anything to be at your side
I’d be anyone to be at your side
I need your life in my life
Need your light in my life
Need your light

Ok, I’m off to take my shower! After I finish this cup of yummy fruit juice. Yum yum yum yum. Fruity juice in my tum~

Edit:

I forgot to click ‘Publish’! until after my shower haha. ANDDDD I bought my first cotton on dress today hahahaha (the one Shum gave me was not counted)

AND COTTON ON HAS THE CUTEST OWL SOCKSSSS. Feel like going back to get them hahaha but I have too many. Pft

Oooookay kind of freaked out now (why do I suddenly have so many views on my blog today????) :/

WANT THESE:

(from G Market omg I have been going there too frequently this should stop…)

Also! RWP REPORT & IOCHEM TEST ARE BEHIND ME NOW. Gonna get results of the chem test tomorrow. Fingers crossed! hehe

Hahaha soooo my Facoup purchases from GMarket arrived the day after I posted that they hadn’t. Hehe I really like my yellow jacket even though Hari says it looks like what the construction workers freaking wear :’( Oh well. I really like it cause it’s thin! and rather sheer haha that’s what I like about it

So I’m halfway through my report!!!! w0000000t~ I just can’t wait to get over and done with it, seriously!

The past few days have been pretty strange for me, in a very I’m-alive-but-not-living sense. It’s kinda bad. Oh well, hopefully this will all go away after my exams are over and I can slack without feeling guilty hahahaha.

HOHO speaking of the time when my exams will be over (aka my HOLIDAYS) I want to learn how to play the guitar! Like really actually learn how to strum and play songs and stuff. So exciting hehehe

Okay I’m sleepy. Just wanted to update anyway ^^

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes, saying “Ayo~ gotta let go…”

Hahahaha I’m sure the last one applies to everyone (if not most)